I can't say I've been looking for to it or dreading it. It's more like a simple fact, an insignificant milestone on an arduous journey.
In the last few years I've:
been single/involved/single again/involved again/single again...
lost my steady job, started multiple temp jobs where I'm either there for a day or a week, or 3 months and they absolutely love me and say wonderful things but they just don't have an opening they can keep me in...
had health scares (cancer has hit my family several times (including breast cancer), heart problems are dominant in my family, etc). no wonder I'm a bit of a hypochondriac...
my cat died...
my great-aunt, my third cousin and my landlady passed away...
my neighbor had a
adopted two 3yr old purebred siamese cats who are neurotic and have all sorts of issues from being in cages for most of their lives...
reconnected with an old flame...
cried my eyes out...
laughed myself silly...
driven along windy mountain roads for the sheer pleasure of it...
made new friends...
started a new novel...
Today, I had dinner with my family, bought myself a piece of flourless chocolate torte for my birthday cake, and met a young man with a passage from the baghavad gita tattooed on his arm in Hindi.
Today, I took a brand new deck of Doreen Virtue 'Magical Mermaids and Dolphins' oracle cards, shuffled 3 times, cut them once, and asked for some kind of... sign.. for this year, for my future, for what is to come:
I drew "A New Dawn"
"You've endured storms over rough seas, but now the way is clear and smooth. From hereon in, you can expect the best. Wash away the negativity from your consciousness and past memories, and keep only the positive lessons and love. Don't hang on to anything that could weigh you down, such as resentment or bitterness. Let it go!
If you've gone through patterns of negativity in the past, this is the time to affirm: 'I now release the need to experience this life lesson. I extract whatever teachings I need to discover, and I move on to a life of harmonious and peaceful actions.'
By pulling this card, you've turned a corner in your life, wherein your prayers and positive thoughts are delivering new rays of Divine Light to illuminate your present and future."
I feel hopeful!
